Freedom

There is this saying which means only when you lose an eye, you know how important it was. The same logic goes with freedom.
These days, I completely understand why our people, generations ago, died for freedom. I appreciate freedom can mean various things for various people, and so, would not comment on anyone else; but at least for me, I now rank it No.1 in my priorities. The greatest freedom for me is when I don't need to depend upon anyone, or share anything with anyone, and when no one is dependent upon me as well. Freedom for me is when I can enjoy my harmless passions with a full heart. Freedom for me is mobility. Freedom for me is no restriction to any ethical and legal activity.
You don't get it anywhere and everywhere. Some people may not get it even inside their own house. Lack of freedom is terrible. That time gets wasted, and it eats up thrice the time, to rebuild stuff.
Probably I may be expecting too much from the world. But I can't help.

Learning to Fly!

Confusion

Moving fast. The cruise is set.  

The feeling of slowing down has started creeping in. And the straight lonely single lane road is filled up of confusions. Somewhere, somehow, there is confusion. Lost.

Looking up at the star studded sky. Finding it infinitely blank. Looking at the forests around. Finding them dark and hollow. Helpless; the need to fill them all up. Possibly a part of them. But then, where did all the energy go? Where are the companions who travelled along?

Music is on. But then, it is getting more and more difficult to understand. Turning into noise.

Streetlights are fading away.  Ground disappear. It is all black. 

Open eyes, find city lights are not far away. White, blue, red, and black. And too many roads.   

Thoughts.

Sometimes, it plays tricks. You'll have everything and still you won't win. You'll have nothing and you win.

Time cycles.  Diameter varies.

Letters die. Notes remain.

How would you define freedom? Capacity? Power? I may differ. Luck. Luck is freedom.Fate. Fate is freedom. If they are.

Those swimming on Ray-Bans, or flying on them, why Ray-Ban? Why not the sky?

Let us check the pulse. And the pulses. Nothing is numb. Oh yeah, predictions. Bullshit.

Why?

I don't have an aim. Nor do I think I would ever have one later.
I know I need to be comfortable all throughout my life. But, I don't have an answer for why should I live. And I know that I am living life king size right now.
So I just thought I would try churning up a few , and try to write those down.
I need to take care of my parents. Need to keep them happy. Mutual expectations.
Brothers. Need to ensure they have a comfortable life. Same reason. But those two are agreeable.
And?
I'll have a family, I should take care of them, but why?
Social responsibility. Why on earth? For all the pain it gives?
For the names we have been associated with, since birth. What would have happened if we were associated with a different one? Bullshit, no reason philosophy. Unnecessary rivalry. Close the chapter.
Is it all waste of time? Existence has a meaning?
To run around in the same vicious circle causing danger to itself?

Spotlight on the dark corner.

I am a fool.
Because I fail to understand why people compromise happiness for money.
Because I don't appreciate selfishness.
Because I expect everyone to appreciate innocence and sincerity.
Because I think that most people think twice on how someone is feeling, or will feel, before doing anything related.
Because I convince myself that love is always reciprocated.
Because I feel corruption is just another habit, and not another way of life.
Because I believe that only empty pots make lots of sound.
Because I am sure I can change this world, and am determined to spend time on it.
Because I suppose other people think the way i do.
Because I never tried to lie for achievement.
Because I experience pain at most others' pains.
People say I have changed. I do understand that I have changed. But I still remain the same fool. And would like to remain the same fool.